A few weeks ago, Nate beat his former best friend, Cam, half to death; in retaliation, Cam stabbed Nate in the stomach with a shard of broken pottery. How did it come to this? In his deposition, Nate tells the story of their tumultuous relationship. Quiet, rule-following Nate, who lives with his often- working father and controlling Aunt Lori, is drawn to Cam’s exuberance and intelligence. When their relationship turns physical, Cam decides to come out as bisexual, while Nate struggles to integrate his new knowledge of himself with his Catholic faith and self-image. But as it turns out, there are more forces than just internalized biphobia working against them, and with Cam’s urging, Nate’s testimony begins to shed a light on family secrets that have remained hidden for far too long. Tense, compelling, and heartrending, this novel featuring two white teens puts a whole new twist on the classic coming-out tale. (Age 13 and older)

“A heartbreaking and important read.” —Caleb Roehrig, author of Last Seen Leaving

“[A] layered, complex depiction of questioning (bi)sexuality... A heartbreaking case worth revisiting again and again.” —Kirkus Reviews, starred review

Nate never imagined that he would be attacked by his best friend.

For sixteen years, Nate was the perfect son—the product of a no-nonsense upbringing and deep spiritual faith. Then he met Cam, who pushed him to break rules, dream, and accept himself. Conflicted, Nate began to push back. With each push, the boys became more entangled in each others’ worlds...but they also spiraled closer to their breaking points. And now all of it has fallen apart after a fistfight-turned-near-fatal-incident—one that’s left Nate with a stab wound and Cam in jail.

Now Nate is being ordered to give a statement, under oath, that will send his best friend to prison. The problem is, the real story of what happened between them isn’t as simple as anyone thinks. With all eyes on him, Nate must make his confessions about what led up to that night with Cam...and in doing so, risk tearing both of their lives apart.